I have a hard time with commitment.

Maybe it’s the fear?  Of taking that first step, only to be hurt like so many times before?

People tell me “Fear is poison. Fear is worthless. Don’t fear commitment.  Take that step.”

But I have been hurt so many times before.

Even now, the pain of each past failure is still with me, digging into my heart like tiny shards of glass.

Twin Peaks. Cupid.  Firefly.

Each one cancelled before its time.

I thought I had learned from these experiences. I thought my heart had hardened. I thought I grown past my youthful optimism. But no--when FOX announced the TV series Drive, I thought it sounded cool.  A fun, mystery-filled premise. Some actors I liked.  So I foolishly rushed in as though I was nineteen years old again.  I set my TIVO to record the show with a Season Pass.

And I liked it. It wasn’t great television, but it was good.  I wanted to know what happened next.

And what happened?  FOX cancelled it after only two episodes.

I should have known better.  I should have realized that a good thing never lasts. I should have known not to open myself up again. To make myself vulnerable.  Particularly FOX, which has a record of not giving a shows a chance to find their--

Dear Reader,

This is the FOX network. Unfortunately, we’re forced to cancel the Geese Aplenty post currently in progress on May 3, 2007.  We liked the idea when we heard it, but the post just isn’t attracting the demographic we hoped for. We may burn off the rest of the post in the summer, but no promises.  We do hope to work with Greg again on a post that’s more suited for the FOX’s vision.  Hopefully a post with a little more formula. Our audience likes easy formulas.  Anyway, the rest of this post will be replaced with a rerun of House, already in progress.

HOUSE: ....an impressive display of buttocks, Cuddy.

(Suddenly stops short in amazement)

WILSON: He just had the epiphany that will lead us to unlocking this week’s medical mystery, didn’t he?

CAMERON: Of course. It’s 42 minutes into the episode, isn’t it?